I've had a good week, thanks, I think, to chemicals ingested. I discovered this past summer that an intolerance to gluten was responsible for my periodic deep depressions, into which no light could shine. Within a week of eliminating all forms of gluten (and they are legion) from my diet, I popped out of a three month depression and could move forward. The next psychological toxin to take hold was anxiety. Granted, I have a lot to be anxious about, personally, professionally, and as an inhabitant of this world, but my anxiety was such that all I could do was stand in the metaphorical road bleating in terror. I hardly accomplished anything at all between bursts of existential terror. Then I read somewhere that a magnesium deficiency could cause anxiety so I bought a calcium-magnesium chewable. Next I discovered a homeopathic remedy in Kroger, of all places, for "stress due to work." About three days into these two remedies, the anxiety peeled away. All the rational causes for my anxiety are still with me, but the anxiety itself is either absent or so reduced I hardly notice it. The result? I am able to move forward.
I've finished my website (www.funding-finder.com), I have three clients (no money, just three clients), and have started to connect to a whole group of people, to have conversations and do work that matters to me and generally to feel a part of something again. I have actually made a friend in the area, and what a blessing that is! Like a dog that turns around three times before settling in for the night, I am scratching my blanket and beginning to settle into my life here.
